Grief and Other Minds.

The Death of a Son. A father questioning his mind and doubting the minds of others. Alcohol, insanity, self destruction, prolonged grief, the loss of his business and family home. Can he reconcile the rest of his family and save the relationship with his wife?



Denial and Anger

Guilt and a deal with the devil

Literary DNA and self-expressive writing

Chapter One

It All Falls Apart

It’s 6 am and Susan is at the sink in the kitchen of a remote lake district farmhouse. There are no street lights for two miles in any direction, so the rotating blue lights bouncing off the damson trees are stark. Car doors slam and two policemen in high viz jackets appear framed in the light from the window. They remove their hats as one.

Time ends.

Zero Sum Game.


Chapter Two


Grief is exploration but without a map. We look for and see signs along the way, but we don’t have the code to read the hieroglyphics. If you didn’t feel the pain you wouldn’t feel anything. There are tormentors at every step, some are just the photo of a smiling four-year-old boy, sat on his dad’s knee.

First Anniversaries

Assange Moment.


Chapter Three

A Foot in Two Camps

You still stay awake at night until your other children get home, but now your own mortality is your demon. Guilt is smiling when the sun shines or when you hear a song you enjoyed when you were your dead son’s age. 

Literary DNA

160 over 105

Nothing is beautiful.

Chapter Four

A Sedative

Grief never leaves. Victims handle it in different ways, from self-expressive writing to drugs, alcohol, and suicide. Grief can also change over time, from suicide to self-expressive writing. It’s about whatever gets you through the night and helps you remember your loved one, although, at the beginning, you look for things to help you forget.

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